I want answers

And I want them now. Oh dear. I have to laugh at myself.

It used to be that when close friends would tell me that maybe there were no answers I merely responded by redoubling my efforts in the search. And in all honesty I did find many truths that they just didn't have.

However today I am annoyed at some of my addictions. Driven by want - the perception of lack. Maybe the answer (ha-ha) to my quest for answers lies in allowing the perception of lack to dissolve rather than striving harder in my search.

So my answer really might be, there is no answer. For the moment. Today.

Limits of Assertion

I have learnt that in relationship everything has to be able to work both ways for equality to exist. So to accept a compromise with my significant Other I have to be able to live with either side. If I demand something then I have to be able to yield to the reciprocal demand.

It has always saddened me when people attempt to control and silence each other with claims to a higher authority. My classic sensitivity has been about time, folks would say to me "You don't understand time, God isn't like you that he needs to be limited by time, he is outside time." However they do not typically accept the reciprocal. "You don't understand time, it is a concept created by the human mind and to say anyone is outside time is a contradiction".

These arguments occur all the time. It can be fun to argument-watch in a similar vein to people-watch, to spot when these occur. It can also sadden to allow that level of awareness to permeate us as we see the play of unseen forces hindering and destroying potential relationship.

Our ability to assert is limited, when we break through the limits of our assertion we really have to ask what unseen force or desire in me is causing me to break the boundaries of assertion and beat on my friend? Why is it so important to be right?

Universalism

Am enjoying the dialog - http://demerging.blogspot.com/2005/08/inclusion-universalism-judgement.html

A new direction

I am learning balance between Self and Other. Personally I feel bashed to deny the Self. "Deny yourself, take up your cross and follow me". However I think there is balance in "love your neighbour as yourself". To destroy the Self is to destroy the very source of love we posses, our very ability to love the Other. Surely to love all is the goal?

I want to converse about love. Partly because it's a lot more interesting and inspiring than inerrancy, or creation, or the atonement, or ecclesiology, or post-modernity, or modernity, or ... *grin*, but mainly because I suspect it will yield greater benefit to my Self and Others than all the talk about all those other subjects.

So for anyone going this way, let me join you in conversation and life and maybe we can learn some more of the way of love.

Awareness, denial and misdiagnosis of a problem

I have to laugh at some of the on-blog dialogs I read. You see two people going round in infinite circles, not listening to the Other. At least one but often both are in denial, lack awareness or Self and Other, and misdiagnose where the problem lies.

It saddens me as often both people's desire is to engage in mutually beneficial interaction however when one person misdiagnoses the problem the Other can't stop pressing the buttons as they distracted and are being sensitive to the wrong thing. A loving response to supposed disclosure is wasted and the person being sensitive gets frustrated as they are still inadvertently pressing the buttons when they are doing their best not to.

So my plea to all who read this is to carefully, seek to become increasingly aware and to try not to misdiagnose the source of a problem not because that is wrong but merely for the practical benefit that it allows the Other to be sensitive to the issue.

Oh, by the way, another word for misdiagnosis is blame.

Inerrancy is laughable (or love is supreme)

If God had wanted us to treat the Bible as inerrant then he could have made it perfectly clear but it seems, from the evidence, that it just wasn't all that important to him. Instead the themes of his totally sacrificial love and our responses of having faith in it and mirroring it are surely more important to him as seen by the sheer wordage and clarity devoted to those motifs.

I can hear him laughing at the nonsense we generate.

What's the core question?

Over the last few months I've been reading various blogs and engaging in some on-line discussion. There is much well written stuff. Very well written. Beautiful even.

The only problem is it doesn't resonate. There are many great and exciting ideas and the author who is most elegant tends to win and sway opinion however I look at it and still something doesn't resonate.

I hear the ideas of emerging church, missional focus, post-modernism etc etc etc... blah blah blah... I hear both sides of the inerrancy argument, the sex before marriage argument, the whatever argument... and still nothing resonates in my heart.

I wonder if all these people are really aware what the core question really is, whether they have put aside their intellectual projects, given their minds a rest and really listened to their souls. I suspect we are all driven and controlled by that within us that is left unconcious. I recognise it all around me.

Well it's time to stray from the worn path even more in search of a better land. Will be back from time to time.