Some point in your life

At some point in life you realise that the external world doesn't change depending on how you are feeling. As you relax, your awareness expands, you realise that who you are and how you behave is down to your own choice and the momentum of those choices. You unterstand that you allowed yourself to be conditioned by your environment and that sometimes you had to go along with it as otherwise it would have been very painful however you realise that once the external pressure is gone you are free to change to be who you want to be. You also realise that sometimes bearing short term pain is worth the long term gain and you realise that you are master of your own destiny. At some point in your life all this may become clear.